Day 7 of writing every day.
I’ve made it to one week of writing every day!
After a satisfying weekend that was mostly occupied by my dojo’s monthly seminar, I feel a lot better after being forced to shorten my practice time by work. It felt even better waking up knowing I didn’t have to go to work and had the whole day to myself.
I made my intentions clear to my family about wanting to do better and believed myself to be taking the steps to change my habits. However once I plopped myself in front of my PC, I quickly realized how much more I still have to go.
During the weekend seminar I found my focus drifting at times just watching my shihan (what you might call a high ranking teacher in Japanese) demonstrate the technique to practice next.
Granted I’d usually get thrown a few times and am regaining my composure as I watch, it does show how little I and probably everyone is able to pay attention and absorb everything that’s going on in the brief moments my shihan shows how everything works and what to be careful of.
Jumping back to today, when I started an online module for Microsoft Azure fundamentals, I found my focus waning before 30 minutes had even passed. This is not good.
There’s no need to pace myself at hour long classes like I’m in college or back in school, but at the same time, I need to hold myself responsible for my own learning as no one else is going to hold me accountable for my success and failure. Admitting it and recognizing it is just the first step.
Like writing every day, studying every day is done day by day. I took that first step a week ago for blogging, and I took my first step after many failed attempts for studying.
I believe I can do it. I’ll have to face my own weakness one day at a time.
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