Day 45 of writing every day.
“Don’t lose the momentum!” is a phrase I think that gets thrown around enough as both a word of encouragement to press on and a warning that things aren’t over yet.
I’ve had a busy January and some things that were still in the planning phase in my mind were set down for a few days or a couple weeks while I dealt with matters such as returning to work after the New Years break and organizing the almost-annual memorial event for my Aikido Dojo.
I feel like I can finally catch my breath again and pick up things I had set down where I left them off. And it is literally how I feel right now but “picking things up where you left them,” does not address the fact that you pressed onwards or moved in some direction after you put those things down. So the reality of picking things up where you left them also means having to make the effort to go back to where you left them and pick them up, and then going forward again.
What I’m getting at is the mental effort—and perhaps physical—aspect of going through your mind and sifting through a lot of experiences to recall where it is you left off. I had only begun my search for programming schools and efforts to establish a habit of using free time to study for the purpose of learning new marketable skills.
Now that it’s nearing the end of January, I’m trying to sift through again what it is I hope to accomplish and what I should be learning to change careers. It had been so out of my thoughts for so long that I’m feeling doubt again where I had just started feeling confident about the future a few weeks ago. And this is all despite setting a deadline at the end of January.
I lost the momentum I had in regards to pushing forward towards learning to code, and it’s happened before when I tried studying on my own. I’m determined not to lose sight of where I want to go. Unfortunately, sometimes finding where you left things off mentally isn’t as simple as backtracking. Instead, it feels like I’m trying to find my way through unfamiliar woods that could further be disoriented by mind fog.
Changing directions is not easy when you’ve built momentum. Things might get lost along the way and changing directions to go back and pick them up also requires the energy to do the necessary searching. I’ve told myself that I’m not giving up and I can’t say that I know, but I’m making the effort to push myself towards success and I hope I can find that level of energy and motivation once more.
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