Scatterbrain 2

Day 90 of writing every day.

I woke up in the morning and remembered that I forgot to send an email notice to the parents of the students in the children’s class that today is the monthly seminar. It’s something so simple especially when I am helping with the preparations for the seminar.

Better late than never, however, and I quickly wrote out the email and sent it out. It’s not something that would give parents a reason to get angry or upset at me if I understand their tendencies, but it’s not very professional either. My best practice would be to send the email a week before the day of, as the children come once a week.

It feels like my desire to be dedicated fully to Aikido has been slowly eroded by work not allowing me to attend classes as much as possible. Of course, the time spent away from the dojo has made me think about a lot of things. Many negative thoughts aside, I’m sorting things out internally and expanding the list of things I don’t like or want to do.

I, like so many people who receive a liberal arts education seem to lack a concrete idea of what we want to do for a living. After all, what we were educated to do was to be free thinking and learning anything occupation-specific felt like it was frowned upon and undervalued. You learned based on “interest” and “passion” but learning about things you think are interesting and actually doing the work are very different things.

Once you start working, you might start to realize your interests and passions really aren’t what you thought them to be. They might have been enjoyable in the safety and comfort of a supervised learning mock environment with like-minded peers of the same age group, but reality is much different.

Anyways I was able to squeeze in one programming lesson this week and while I remembered much of the content due to previous attempts to learn to code, I found that there are gaps in memory that suggest I need to get time in to review the materials so I get details right on small but crucial parts that could make the difference between success and failure.

I’ll try and write more about coding instead as there’s no need to write about my current job anymore. I’ve vented enough about it and want to take my blog in a new direction that will help me improve, and I hope you’ll continue to read and follow my journey.

Thanks for reading!