Day 116 of writing every day.
Having not really worked since I started using my last paid days off, it’s been about three weeks of not really being concerned about whether it’s a weekday or the weekend. I was busy cramming programming lessons during the paid leave period, but I’ve basically finished the course and find myself with a lot more time on my hand. Now that every day feels like a day off for the time being, it’s easy to lose track of time.
The temptation to revert to enjoying gaming again is there and I have to take the steps to make sure that doesn’t happen. Yes, I’ve had zoom meetings to get updated with job postings from a headhunter. Yes, I’ve signed up for enrolling at an online programming school. But no, my room is returning to a sorry state of things and that’s making it less likely for me to remain productive while at home.
I do realize that I should be treating myself better and really do need the R&R after turning my paid vacation days into cram sessions, but I want to stay on the right track. Changing careers isn’t easy and the last thing I want to do is slack off. I’m happy that I’m not working at my old job anymore but that happiness is just an improvement in the sense of no longer being in a situation that made me unhappy.
I don’t want to over complicate the idea of happiness or get into a philosophical debate about how not caring about anything anymore is when you are finally free and happy versus attaining material wealth and social status. I just need to establish a habit of coding and building things so that it’s not something I have to make an effort to start doing, but it is something I do effortlessly.
Not being concerned with time at all can be a good thing, but when there’s nothing being done with that time, at least nothing that I feel will give further meaning to my own life, that becomes a problem.
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