Day 222 of writing every day.
I think the heat is getting to me and I’m feeling a bit down mentally as a result. Despite getting a job offer and having the contract ready to be signed and stamped, nothing is finalized until it’s sent in and signed and approved by the company as well.
Somewhere in my mind, I’m feeling insecure about my visa status in Japan and the fact that my expected employer has no experience hiring foreigners. My worry is that they’ll screw up the process, or worse, decide that I’m not worth the hassle of whatever they might be asked to do to be able to hire a foreign worker.
In these moments of weakness, I want to escape back to the comfort of holding a job even if it sucked. I can’t help but start to feel doubt about the choices I made. I know I was upset with the company that kept me waiting far beyond the time frame they gave me, but they did have foreign workers, which feels comforting from the standpoint of knowing your employer won’t run into issues if they decide to hire you.
I’ve been out of a job for over three months and it does something mentally being out of work for an extended period of time. The added weight of technically overstaying my visa, given that my privilege of residing in Japan depends on me being employed, has never really left me.
If I count the days of going into the “overstayed” zone, I’m around three weeks in. While the law can be flexible at times if the authorities involved are lenient, I never see the law as being on “my side.” Laws are here to control and manage people, not help them like some saintly individual.
Well that’s enough negative thinking for the day. I’ll focus on filling out my skill sheet and studying for the IT Passport exam, then spend some time on the web developer course.
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