Day 20 of writing every day.
It is New Year’s Day 2023 and I find it odd how fast my days off work are just flying by. I feel like I haven’t gotten much done and there’s so much more I want to do but there’s only so much time in one day but so little left by when I finish relaxing and want to get busy.
Just spending time decompressing the stress from work life is altering my sleeping habits. I’m falling asleep later since I’m not physically or mentally exhausted but I still need sleep so I’m sleeping later and waking up later in the day. That’s okay if the time of day doesn’t matter, but it’s winter and the hours of daylight are quite limited, so I want to be up and out earlier rather than later if I want to enjoy it being light out.
It’s tempting to just stay home all day, but I feel the air gets stuffy with the windows closed and heating on. I also feel better being on my feet than staying seated all day or lying down all day.
Going out means spending money, however, and no matter how hopeful I might feel about the future of my financial circumstances once I start attending coding school and open up new job opportunities that pay better, that’s all in the future and I’m still living on less than $2,000 a month if converting JPY to USD.
My attitude towards money has changed over the years. I think my upbringing in a single parent household in the lower class had me believing that I should save and save instead of spending.
I wouldn’t feel bad about letting others pay for me, in fact. I hoped that such things might happen by getting on their good side.
Despite being poorer now than when I first came to Japan 10 years ago, I think I understand the importance of giving and grew out of just receiving. It might be just that I’m getting older and experience is changing my perspective. Of course, that doesn’t mean I enjoy giving if people receiving are doing better off than me and can’t be bothered to show any appreciation much less acknowledge receipt of it.
Outlook for January
January is going to be a busy month. I doubt my current job will be affected by it, but if I do get a jump start and enroll in a coding school, I’d be juggling work, Aikido, and coding study plus homework. That would feel like I’m not getting time off I expect, and I’m not sure how prepared for that I am right now.
Writing every day seems to be helping with decluttering my mind but my room is still a work in progress. It’s getting there don’t you doubt.
Thanks for reading and I hope you and more readers will drop by this year of 2023 as well!
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